So. Sleepy.

Well working 24 hours in two days has sure kicked my ass.  I’m glad that I love my coworkers and get along so well with everyone.  The different machines are awesome to learn how to use as well.

Jason, my supervisor, told one of the “blue coats” (the people above us but below the supervisor) that he was worried I would be too slow.  BUT blue coat Peggy told him there’s no way he’s taking me out of the clean room (where I work).  She says I’m a fast worker and learn really fast.  Not to brag or anything, but the girl next in the assembly line receiving the parts I made, couldn’t keep up with me.  And she’s been here longer!

Dipak and I aren’t really talking.  He’s been avoiding me the past couple days because he feels like he’s cheating on both me and Amy…Long story short, if you really like someone and want to move forward with them…you shouldn’t be holding on to your ex, and you shouldn’t make this person you really like have to wait almost two months.  So we’re having a few problems…to say the least.

My landlord agreed to let me pay a late fee and turn my rent in late.  Thank god.  I can’t wait until the paychecks start coming in.  Not working was horrible.  Money-wise, and boredom wise.  I don’t know how people choose to and are okay with sitting on their asses taking unemployment checks.

I haven’t eaten in 48 hours now holy hell.  But I just ordered a veggie sandwich so hopefully my appetite comes back when I see it.  I drank yesterday and was drunk after two Smirnoff Ices.  Never happens to me.  I had the worst stomach ache though.  My meds do not go well with alcohol.  Add an empty stomach to that…oofta.

I have had the same nightmares for years.  I’m on these old abandoned train tracks.  There’s like 4 side by side and there’s all sorts of old railway cars lined up along the tracks.  Someone is chasing me, in all black.  I can’t see their face.  I don’t know if it’s human or what.  But I am terrified and can tell that if it catches me I will die.  Sometimes the person switches to a clown.  I’m terrified of clowns.  Ugh.  I hate this dream.

I also keep having nightmares about spiders recently.  I think out of everything I am scared of, spiders are number one.

I dreampt about Dipak last night too.  I don’t remember what it was about, but I woke up crying and hugging my pillow.  Like literally, tears were streaming down my face.

So, all in all, I am fucking tired.  I haven’t had a good nights sleep in a few days now.


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