To be, or not to be. That is the question.

I’ve had two suicide attempts in my life.  I slit my wrists, and then I overdosed on different pills.

Clearly, it didn’t work out the way I had wanted it too.

I still think about it a lot.  It’s hard to keep going in life.

I’m broke.  I owe thousands of dollars for school, including $1800 before September.  Not going to happen…

I lost my virginity to Dipak, and then slept with Saud.  Now I just feel like a useless whore that nobody really wants anything with.  I’m ready to find that someone, I’ve always wanted to get married young.

I’m unattractive.  I used to be.  I’m not anymore. I can’t stand looking in the mirror.

School is getting worse and worse for me.  I have no motivation anymore.  My grades have slipped and my gpa is at a 2.6.

My sister was a straight A student.  She was in psychology, but still.  My dad and stepmom praise the ground she walks on.  I feel like I’ve failed everyone.

I just hate myself.  I feel selfish.  So many people would kill to have what I have.  People are dying, and here I am complaining about everything.  I just don’t want to be here anymore.  I really don’t.  What the hell is the point.

Hopefully things change for me.  We’ll see…

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